06-11-2013, 10:14 PM
Hi guys! No sooner than I proclaimed that I would be back to "bitching about overpowered guns" in LNoE, more crises hit and I became overwhelmed. Again I will spare you the details but this time I was able to learn something from it. I will explain:
I have a good job and I can support myself rather comfortably. But until poverty shows up within your own circles, affects people you care about and stares you in the face, it is sickeningly easy to dismiss it--even to react with annoyance to the people who suffer from it. My first reaction to seeing a homeless person panhandling on the street isn't "how can I help?" What goes through my mind is closer to "why are you here?"
I have long understood that I want to work with an under served population, but only to be honored and revered by my peers--absolutely the wrong reasons! Additionally, what I did not know is how callous I am towards these people. This was a learning experience for me to be sure!
This whole experience has ignited in me a passion, a drive, an unbreakable resolve to do something about it! What I have learned about myself in the past three months is that all this time, I have held homeless people in contempt when I should have focused my energy, my aggression towards poverty. Now I have clear objectives and a relatively straightforward (but not easy) pathway to achieve them. I have chosen a specialty, I want to become a public health nurse.
In time I will work to earn their forgiveness, perhaps even the right to call myself a "healer." But for now, step one is to focus on graduating from the nursing program and passing my NCLEX-RN.
My only regret is that I did not understand this problem before it was thrust upon me.
I have a good job and I can support myself rather comfortably. But until poverty shows up within your own circles, affects people you care about and stares you in the face, it is sickeningly easy to dismiss it--even to react with annoyance to the people who suffer from it. My first reaction to seeing a homeless person panhandling on the street isn't "how can I help?" What goes through my mind is closer to "why are you here?"
I have long understood that I want to work with an under served population, but only to be honored and revered by my peers--absolutely the wrong reasons! Additionally, what I did not know is how callous I am towards these people. This was a learning experience for me to be sure!
This whole experience has ignited in me a passion, a drive, an unbreakable resolve to do something about it! What I have learned about myself in the past three months is that all this time, I have held homeless people in contempt when I should have focused my energy, my aggression towards poverty. Now I have clear objectives and a relatively straightforward (but not easy) pathway to achieve them. I have chosen a specialty, I want to become a public health nurse.
In time I will work to earn their forgiveness, perhaps even the right to call myself a "healer." But for now, step one is to focus on graduating from the nursing program and passing my NCLEX-RN.
My only regret is that I did not understand this problem before it was thrust upon me.