Personal Update: Bad News

[StayPuft]

Thanks, PJON. That means a lot to me. I have been trying my best to keep a positive mindset through all of this. The true fact of the matter is I am so much better off. It is just sometimes hard to see that. This is just not where I saw myself at this age. But, sometimes in life you have to take the wrong turns to learn what the right turns are.

I think you hit the nail right on the head. To that end, in my relationship, it was all give, give, give on my end, and take, take, take on hers. There was no compromise. That just got to be too much.

As I have said, I do not blame her. I think we were just too different in ways that did not seem so big at first and just grew to be bigger. Instead of somewhat compromising, our differences just grew bigger. In the end, there isn't anything wrong with the way she wants to live, it just isn't for me. And there isn't anything wrong with the way I want to live, it just isn't for her.

Some day, I hope to find the woman who was truly meant for me, and I for her. And there is no such thing as a perfect relationship... but I hope to find somebody where the compromise won't feel so much like compromise after all, because there will actually be some on her end as well.

But, as I said, I at least learned how to be happy with me. Mind you, it isn't like I wanted to be loved so badly that I rushed into a relationship that was wrong. That simply ain't me. ;-) I take things like that very seriously. However, I did always want that. I am kind of a romantic dude. I've always wanted a relationship. So, having had one has actually made me stronger, even though it may have not ended up for the best. Because, in a way, it finally showed me that I can do it. That I am worthy. Which, funny enough, makes it not matter as much if I don't find that next relationship, or at least not for a while.

Anyways, if I don't shut myself up now, I will go on and on forever. LOL! Thanks again, PJON, and everybody for your support and kind words. :-)